FEELING FUCKED.


Do I ever get enough of my feelings. Really! they rule me. Logic somehow just whooshes past me. I mean I know it all... Black and white. It is just that my heart just rules my actions more then my head does. And I still go by it even though I know at the end i am fucked. I mean I will regret it of course. I chose it... it is me. So yeah! I know vaugley where i am heading to.

This is an extract from one of my mails, and Yes! that is what it is.

" And yes life is simple. I know. I just took the wrong route. Because i could see you somewhere down the road. it is going to be tough for me to travel. But hell! I love the price I pay for my prize. :) Please be umm tempting. I left a lot for i chose the hard road. Just dont make it tougher then it already is. Okay? I am typing this in 'cause i am really feeling like i am being kicked in the arse from all ends. I lost some friends, some better people, some hopes just because You mean a lot to me. Just dont hurt me then necessary. alright???"

A convo with someone I love.


"If i had to leave I would have a long while back and my staying with you please do not consider it to be my weakness. I love you. That is the only reason that i am still here. Not that i can not live by myself, but I know I can not see you hurt because of me. I just love you"

This what is termed as feelings fucked.
You just throw your senses away for love. Called a fool and still be proud of it. Is it not headlessness.


Some of the most Important people in my life.

~ Dad.
~Mom.
~Bro.
~Chotu (with much loathing)
~Bubbly
~Anne (my wife *winks* let us not let my mum catch us in bed again *giggles*)


Except for the last two. The rest screw my life.


Aw. But If anything will go wrong, it will... So you ask me why the fight? *leans closer* well!! Buddy that is because I am Human and I have Feelings (untamed more like).